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Dear Appa





I know you have dreams for me,
I know you have faith in me,
I know you have nurtured me,
But I want to fly away.

I know you have sat beside me,
I know you have cried with me,
I know you have died with me,
But I want to fly away.

I know you sacrificed for me
I know you struggled for me
I know you tried for me,
But I want to fly away.

I know you love me,
I know you care,
I know you would dare,
But I wish you just let me be, me.




~ Rachna Reddy






Gyanban Thoughts - These few lines are a precursor to the story that follows in my next post - Dear Appa. This one talks about trapped feelings that so many youngsters have which they cannot express and suffer internally.In this age of over-communication people often miss the thousands of words spoken in silence.

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  1. Well done, but I suppose everyone tries to change us a little bit. I think it is good for us. But it could go either way, I suppose.

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  2. Sometimes that's more than enough....just being yourself...a free bird...

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  3. I know of someone else who was feeling a bit stifled not too long ago - cynically engineered. Looking forward to the story.

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