Happiness

It would be so interesting to know the correct way to lead your life isnt it ?
Career,Finances,Married Life,Kids,Responsibilities and the list is endless.
What I realize now, it 's just not about hunting and pursuing the right thing to do in life alone,it is also about
parallely making tangible efforts to kick start the effort. Otherwise it becomes paralysis by analysis.

I think the biggest fear factor is losing.If we can overcome the fear of losing then life would probably be much easier.
This fear stops us from doing or trying so many different things that life has to offer.
However , on the flip side, if we dont fear losing, we might lose interest in everything,nothing will enchant us, thrill us, scare us, lighten us,is that the life you want ?

So then what is the right path to true happiness.?
I thinking there isn't anything like true happiness. It s a perceived happiness based on the immediate circumstance one is in. our brain sets variable parameters for determining happiness from time to time.And we keep chasing those variables all our lives.

The insecurity that arises of not having the desired variable differs from individual to the other,in varying degrees.It doesn't help either if you have friends and family who don't necessarily understand your predicament.
No fault of theirs either because it s not they who do the evaluation of your life, it s you who lets these things affect your mind.

So in essence there are two ways you could deal with the situation -

1. live in the present,don't think about the future.
2. if you do think about tommorow then do something about it today.


Either of these actions might be a futile excercise if you do not keep the function of time in perspective while executing these activites...

Dream Chronicle 1

I've been toying with this idea for long..it s about "chronicling" the dreams that are best remembered..who knows someday they might begin to make sense ?
In many of my dreams ,I ve seen my self in totally alien surroundings...in someone else's family,watching over a regular every day scene, I can recall alarming details of the people, their outfits,their names,color of the environment,time of the day or night, and funnily enough as much as I know that dreams are symbolic representations of things/events from the past, none of the things that i ve seen in the dreams has ever occured in my life, or is even remotely close symbolicaly to the events in my life so far...

As an example - I would dream of Mr. X ,his family, his house, his environment in complete detail...without ever having been exposed to anyone remotely named or described like that in my life.

So i ve decided to capture as many such dreams as possible from now on...


February 3 ,2009

The scene - A big two storeyed house,sloping red roof ,large rectangle windows.
Feels like country side, some fields, looks like a small town actually.

The time - Late evening before sunset on a cloudy day, the sun is setting behind the house,

The place - somewhere in Africa,probably Nigeria [i have been there in my early childhood,however,the description above is nothing similar to the environment we lived in]

Scene II - I move into the second floor , see a corridor, with rooms on either side, the scene is now in black and white, i peep into one of the rooms to see some people sitting inside and looking at me with a "I-am-not-surprised" look !

Somebody is saying something to me in the background, muffled male voice, cannot make out what is it about ... that's all I can remember as of now...

Such is Life vol 1.

You reach the office with a smile,
which only lasts for a while,
You open your now spamful inbox
you really need to detox,
but ahoy you deleted the bosses email,
now you'll surely hear the verbal trail,

you pray for lunch time to come early,
buy your boss is big and burly,
there's no getting away from that bunch,
he wants to have you for lunch !

Skipping the mail you slouch in your chair,
wallow in your despair,
but there's another ppt to prepare,
getting your mind back to work is a pain,
you hear the thunder clouds,it is going to rain,

The sudden happiness vanishes and you realize
you don't have an umbrella to raise,
so you get back to your ppt
feeling absolutely shitty

It s time for a quick coffee break
and you get a firm handshake,
your biggest rival just got promoted,
they guy your boss always doted,

This is it you think,
but laugh and wink,
ignorance is what you feign,
impulse tells you to resign,

the fellow losers come by,
crib ,bitch and time goes by,
You see the clock - 15 more mins
then It s time to go home - finish !

You rush through the elevator,
but your mobile is a rocking vibrator,
Bosses text reads lets have a quick chat,
your mind races on the last diktat,

You Spend two hours attentively agreeing with the boss,
looking interested,while thinking about Jaws
The plastic smile is now aching your facial muscles
the battering is in cycles,


8PM and you dont want to go home to hear the musical,
there s a new album playing there - suicidal.
The cabbies don't stop,
you ve to take the long walk,


Then it happens,
it leaves you shaken,
you see white light all around
your feet are not on the ground,

it feels sooo good,
You get the feeling of being understood,
there s a sense of calm,
soft hands applying balm

music in the ears, cool wind in the hair,
your eyes are closed
and just while you were getting used to this
you are awoken from your state of bliss,

The car just missed you
just pushed you,
and hit the tree behind you,
that's a stroke of luck for you,
then the branch falls on you..

you are intellectually innocent,
Such is life you vent....

Alien Thoughts

However it also makes me wonder why dont
the aliens show up once and for all ? Remove all doubt. What's stopping them ?
Assuming that they are such an advanced
technology,they shouldn't be worried by the poor earthlings attacking them,if that's their reason for not going "public"!Think about it .

Which is why I sometimes think that these are our next gen technologies developed internally and kept deliberately away from public so as to not create a panic situation.This information will be given to us in a staggered manner over the years. Besides there could be a commercial angle to it as well.

Maybe some of these technologies will be available in the market to buy and sell..hence perfecting it before hitting the market might seem a good idea.

It still doesn't discount the fact that this knowledge is certainly a combination of human intelligence and external superior intelligence.
Someone's creativity can only go that far - but to achieve this delta X effect,
one would need some knowledge from something out there.

A flying disc,say in 1947 will seem more plausible, unbelievable,tilting towards paranormal phenomena, than say 2007.
isn't it ?Discovery channel once showed an episode on experimental avionics.
Where saucer shaped, vertical rise air craft were being tested,dated back in late 60's.

In summary -

these space ships,flying saucers etc. are actually internal scientific experiments with the aid of alien advanced technology knowledge or awareness.

Mathematically, we cannot be alone in the universe.
I would imagine -one day everyone will be able to see them collectively -
almost as if at the same time.At the end of science there's God !

This "view" will then be debated as God vs Science...

Moody Blues

If a raindrop could trickle
inside your mind so fickle,
your eyes would roll
around the pole,
to give it some direction
perhaps caring love and affection,
or cool like mint,
subtle - get the hint ?
run with the little drop,
just flow dont stop,
blocked by a thought,
of the battles fought,
distanced by forks,
and the flying storks,
gliding and floating,
but still look for that fleeting feeling..

Roadless Travel

These are the times I guess,I think and I let it go,
somewhere one has to know,
which road to travel,where to turn
and when to stop.
There is fun in not knowing,exploring and discovering ad hoc.

We run against time at all times,when young -be old, when gold -try new. People just don't travel in the mind,stop evolving,the world is revolving.
Those who rolled with time,grime and blocks, have the mind bind in sands of time.

Be in now.enjoy the flow in row,keep an eye for the exit,
if you re lucky,you'll get it.

Sharpness

They will remind you of their power and glory,
drill in their superiority story,
wonders of achievement and challenges overcome,
so much work done and so much to come,

The idea is to be sharp they say,
to be smarter in every way,
and the ones you aren't
are the things that weren't

Where have all the simpletons gone?
or are they a bleeding result of the sharpness overdone ?
There still lies a charm in the Holy mistake,
else you could eat and have your cake !