February 19, 2009

Life Opposites

if you had two keys, you always open with the wrong one,

if you are patiently waiting in a queue ,some will always get a cab before you,

if you wanted to sneak past the boss's office door,

he will be waiting for you ahead on the floor,

If you eagerly open your emails for the impending promotion,

Buy your eyes pop out when you see there are escalations,

If you made up your mind to quit,

Boss throws a new carrot stick.

If you fired a guy for wrong doing,

HR comes back to you for being overbearing,

When you don't appreciate your boss' yell,

It's because you don't understand the culture well.

You decide to go have a fat free lunch,

The queue is so long , you land up with a pizza brunch.

The juicer grinder goes bonkers just when its your turn,

You get fed up and eat the Big Mac bun.

The day goes by without hoping much,

when you get the cost cutting crunch,

and then you think your savings will sail,

just then the ticker shows the markets fail.

Life has a fork at every bend and gap,

nobody really has seen the whole map,

so stay on course even if you fall,

someday you will climb over the wall,

the opposites might do the trick,

maybe He will give you the success stick.

Gyanban thoughts - often times when things are difficult..it almost seems like the whole universe is conspiring against you.Everything you do ,say,write - goes against you. Nothing seems to work. That is when the opposite life is at it s best.The longer you hang in there,better the chances to come out trumps,and turn around the opposite to your side.

February 4, 2009


It would be so interesting to know the correct way to lead your life isnt it ?
Career,Finances,Married Life,Kids,Responsibilities and the list is endless.
What I realize now, it 's just not about hunting and pursuing the right thing to do in life alone,it is also about
parallely making tangible efforts to kick start the effort. Otherwise it becomes paralysis by analysis.

I think the biggest fear factor is losing.If we can overcome the fear of losing then life would probably be much easier.
This fear stops us from doing or trying so many different things that life has to offer.
However , on the flip side, if we dont fear losing, we might lose interest in everything,nothing will enchant us, thrill us, scare us, lighten us,is that the life you want ?

So then what is the right path to true happiness.?
I thinking there isn't anything like true happiness. It s a perceived happiness based on the immediate circumstance one is in. our brain sets variable parameters for determining happiness from time to time.And we keep chasing those variables all our lives.

The insecurity that arises of not having the desired variable differs from individual to the other,in varying degrees.It doesn't help either if you have friends and family who don't necessarily understand your predicament.
No fault of theirs either because it s not they who do the evaluation of your life, it s you who lets these things affect your mind.

So in essence there are two ways you could deal with the situation -

1. live in the present,don't think about the future.
2. if you do think about tommorow then do something about it today.

Either of these actions might be a futile excercise if you do not keep the function of time in perspective while executing these activites...

February 3, 2009

Dream Chronicle 1

I've been toying with this idea for long..it s about "chronicling" the dreams that are best remembered..who knows someday they might begin to make sense ?
In many of my dreams ,I ve seen my self in totally alien surroundings...in someone else's family,watching over a regular every day scene, I can recall alarming details of the people, their outfits,their names,color of the environment,time of the day or night, and funnily enough as much as I know that dreams are symbolic representations of things/events from the past, none of the things that i ve seen in the dreams has ever occured in my life, or is even remotely close symbolicaly to the events in my life so far...

As an example - I would dream of Mr. X ,his family, his house, his environment in complete detail...without ever having been exposed to anyone remotely named or described like that in my life.

So i ve decided to capture as many such dreams as possible from now on...

February 3 ,2009

The scene - A big two storeyed house,sloping red roof ,large rectangle windows.
Feels like country side, some fields, looks like a small town actually.

The time - Late evening before sunset on a cloudy day, the sun is setting behind the house,

The place - somewhere in Africa,probably Nigeria [i have been there in my early childhood,however,the description above is nothing similar to the environment we lived in]

Scene II - I move into the second floor , see a corridor, with rooms on either side, the scene is now in black and white, i peep into one of the rooms to see some people sitting inside and looking at me with a "I-am-not-surprised" look !

Somebody is saying something to me in the background, muffled male voice, cannot make out what is it about ... that's all I can remember as of now...

Fade away

and then, just like that, one day we will fade away, aging books on empty shelves, receding memories of ourselves, sail away l...